Fireflies flickered in the tall grasses bordering the pond. Audrey watched them from her window, contemplating catching a few in a jar like she had done as a little girl. But that would just be procrastinating. She needed to look through the album of adoptive family profiles. It was a daunting task, but the baby could come any day. Time was running out.
She sat on her bed and carefully lifted the cover of the album. She turned the pages slowly, absorbing every detail on each page. Each family was uniquely special and so deserving of a child. There were couples turning to adoption after years of unsuccessful fertility treatment. Others had biological children and now wanted to share their loving home with a child in need of a family. Some couples were older and settled while others were young and adventurous.
How would she ever choose? She lifted her eyes from the book and gazed heavenward. God, show me who to choose. Make it clear; I don’t want to make the wrong choice. Show me your will.
She flipped several pages ahead, skimming through the various profiles. Suddenly, her heart skipped a beat. She turned back a page, not believing her eyes. Scrolled across the top of the page was Proverbs 3:5-6. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. The verse Pastor Mitchel had instilled in her heart. Her breath caught in her throat as she examined the pictures. The couple’s eyes shone with love. A love that also emanated from the words that beautifully spilled from their hearts onto the page. They possessed the qualities she had been looking for—a dedicated marriage and an unmistakable love for Jesus. This was the couple who would raise her child.
With trembling hands and a heart surging with joy, she picked up her phone and made possibly the most important call of her life.
“Zoe’s Place. Ally speaking; may I help you?”
Audrey froze, too consumed with emotion to speak.
Ally spoke again, more impatiently this time. “Hello? Is anybody there?”
“Yes. I’m here. This is Audrey Chapman.” She strained to speak, her words a faint whisper.
“Hi, Audrey. How are you?” Her voice was gentle again and now rang with compassion. She knew Audrey well, as she had mentored her through the pregnancy and now guided her through the adoption process.
Audrey took a deep breath before speaking the next sentence. “I’ve made my decision.”
“That’s wonderful. Would you like to come to the office so we could talk about it?”
Audrey inhaled deeply, and let the air out slowly. “Yes. I’m ready.”
They made plans for Audrey to come to the adoption agency first thing in the morning. Audrey would reveal the family she had chosen for her child, and they would make plans for her to meet with the couple as soon as possible.
Audrey ended the call and released a sigh as she collapsed onto her down comforter, her heart filling with peace. She knew she was doing the right thing. God already had a home prepared for her baby.
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